While my medical treatment for the issue is fairly recent, I have had anxiety issues for as long as I can remember. It tends to come in waves with depression, and when I get them both at their peak, I find myself falling into patterns of feelings that are hard to navigate, let alone overcome.
Anxiety is a tricky puzzle, because there are so many components to it. It is worrying, intensified. There are all the usual parenting concerns, but also deep fears I’ve carried since long before my son was even born. There are moments of regret over dumb things I’ve said and done recently, but also nights when I am kept up from sleep beating myself up over things from middle school or even younger. There are family concerns, money concerns, work concerns, health concerns … but amplified, incessant, and absolutely unable to be soothed.
The silly thing is that even though in the moment, these things feel so critical, my logical brain knows they are not worth worrying about. … Read More